My very own blog

Finally, after years of standing in the shower, staring off into space in my office, sitting in front of the tv (but not actually comprehending anything that I am watching) and just overall "spacing out" because I am reflecting on my day, recent events in my life and anticipating what the future holds, (my mind stuffed entirely too full) I am starting this blog.

I have always expressed myself best in writing. I like to think that I am a good communicator and can get my point across with with face to face, verbal interaction. I can, that is, when it is entirely necessary that I do. Otherwise, I find that I can express myself best in writing. I recently told this to a friend who had been calling me and I had neglected to return her phone call. I knew that she wanted to "chat" about things that had been going on in my life and I finally had to tell her that I would send her an email. That it wasn't because I didn't want to talk to her, but because I could let her know how I am *really* doing. Maybe it is because I have a hard time talking about myself? No, that can't be it. I think I can ramble on about myself quite bit, actually. I think I will come to the conclusion that it is simply because I don't feel like talking about the number one thing that people always want to know about, even if they are to afraid to ask. Who wants to talk about cancer? infertility?

Alas, I am starting this blog. A blog that will likely contain posts on the following topics:
1. IVF
2. Cancer
3. Infertility
4. Food

and of course we can't forget, random rambles. I don't suspect that this blog will be entirely depressing (lets keep our fingers crossed). I do have a fantastic life with wonderful friends, family, husband and furkids. From time to time I suppose I will also write about them.

I haven't made up my mind if I intend to share this blog with many people. I guess we will just have to see where it takes me.

The next couple of weeks should be interesting. We are starting the IVF rollercoaster after 5 unsuccessful IUI's. I am excited and scared shitless. Currently taking a birth control pill (yeah, BCP - oh the irony) and entering week three on it tomorrow. Needless to say (for those of you who have taken BCP) I am already experiencing the mood swings and emotional side effects (poor DH). One positive - larger boobs. Lets hope that they only continue to grow ;-)

And with that, I will sign off. There you have it ladies and gentlemen, my very first blog post!